No one explains how someone should understand grief, how you are suppose to learn how to get through it and process each stage of it.
There is no book that we were given to read as a child to prepare us for this…no class in school taught us how to be ready for the death of one of our parents.
So, even now as I continuely struggle with this grief and these feelings, I try to just get through this day.
These feelings haunt me, as I don’t even know if it’s even right for me to have these feelings & thoughts. I wasn’t as close to my father as I would have wanted to . So, I don’t know if it’s right of me to feel as sad as I do about his loss.
Im just trying to get through another day. Just wishing I had another opportunity to speak to him once again.