As I sit here in the parking lot of Walgreens in Columbia … I am filled with disappointment… in myself.
I showed un-Christlike behavior less than an hour ago, and I feel awful about it.
I am sure we have all seen this on television, where someone is waiting on a parking spot somewhere and some car whips right in and takes it. Well this was me in a parking lot in upper state South Carolina today.
I was waiting, patiently with my blinker on and out of no where comes a car and just pulls into the spot that I was waiting for. 🤯
Well, my reaction to this was not a very considerate or Christlike one. 🤦🏻♀️ I am very embarrassed to say now that I laid on my horn as this car was pulling into this spot, and then I even pulled up beside that car, rolled the window down and ‘had words’ with the driver. (Nothing awful, but still.)
What made me feel even worse about my behavior was there was a family with three children standing behind their car, next to the spot I was waiting for… just watching all of this.
As I was backing up to leave, I don’t think I will forget the looks on their faces. I felt like Christ was saying to me, (in their faces) ‘is this what you want people to see in Me? Is this who you want to be?’
I am disappointed in my behavior and in myself for allowing my anger to get the best of me like this and to sin this way.
I am so thankful for a forgiving God. I am thankful that Jesus forgave my sins today, yesterday, last week, and He will continue to forgive me because I know this is not the last time my anger will get the best of me.