God made me a very emotional woman. I feel things very deeply. I am most definitely not one of those happy-go-lucky type of women, one of those women who have those warm bubbly personalities, that just ooze confidence. The women that can stand in front of a room of 300 and carry on a conversation like it’s nobody’s business, and not even bat an eyelash at the thought. Um yeah, that surely wasn’t in my genetic make up.
I am a woman who has a good bit of struggles, most of them I try very hard to keep to myself. On days like today, when my struggles seem to get the best of me, I take a few moments to let go and let God. I know that I can’t do things on my own, because I fail every single time. My struggles have shown it time and time again. Each time I try to handle these struggles in life in anger, in frustration… with my emotions and not with God, I fail.
When situations come up in my life that I try to handle on my own, and frustration or anger takes over… it’s so hard for me. It’s hard for me sometimes choose the right thing to do. Will I act or react? If I react in my emotional state and use my words, then 9 out of 10 times I will most likely say something I know I will regret. Words are so very powerful. We can build up or tear down with our words. The book of James says no human can tame the tongue.
“The tongue is set among our members, staining the whole body, setting on fire the entire course of life, and set on fire by hell.” James 3:6 ESV
“but no human being can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison.” James 3:8 ESV
There are many things that I am not. God did not make me quiet and demure and he most certainly didn’t make me to conform. God made me uniquely me. I don’t try to be something or someone who I am not. Not everyone likes the authentic me, and that’s okay. God did not put me here to be well liked or be like everyone else, but to stand apart and be different.
As I walk through this day today, I am glad that I am different for Jesus.